I have been conflicted about whether or not to post this. I feel a bit strange about it. It felt so real, I am sure it was not just a dream. I have not attempted lucid dreaming before. I have attempted remote viewing with some success before while meditating. But this was very vivid and it occurred while I was asleep.
I am female and I had a dream that I raped a man. This is the third time I have had this type of dream in my life. The last two times were a few years back and they happened at a time when I was not consciously pursuing this path of magick in any serious way. The last time I had the dream it was about my boss. My boss was female and within a week or so of having the dream, I got a promotion. That year, I got two promotions in the space of two months. The time before that, I grew a cock and violently raped a man in a park. I penetrated him. Very disturbing and vaguely erotic. I am fucked up I know.
Anyway, I a self employed now (so it can’t mean promotion this time) and I have been engaging in meditation, evocation, spell casting and divination intensely for a few months now. I had dabbled previously, but not in a serious or sustained way. I have had some strange experiences with dreams and one incident of extreme sleep paralysis since I started.
In this particular dream, I was on a roof terrace with a female friend. We were performing a song (I am not a performer). The friend turned out to be a deformed version of the model Naomi Campbell. We soon realised that two men tried to steal some things from our suitcases. They swapped their things for ours. No idea why, because we did not have anything particularly valuable.
I was very angry, in a rage. I remember the guy I attacked was much bigger than me, but somehow, I pinned him down so that he could not move. I got him hard with my hands and sat on his cock. It was very, very large. He cried and I called him demeaning names and continued to fuck him until I was on the verge of coming. He kept crying and the more he cried, the more aroused I became. I was rocking my hips so intensely that the motion woke me up. I was still rocking like I was having sex. I woke up drenched in sweat and still very aroused. My anger was spent, but I was confused and disturbed. Could this be an entity? I did not recognise the guy in the dream. I can not remember his face, but I know it was no one I know.
One thing I remember is that I felt very in control in the dream. It was as if I was taking all of the actions I took consciously- which sounds odd. I don’t recall ever having a lucid dream before, I am not sure if this was one. I don’t know what the hell it was. If anyone has any ideas, I would love to hear them.