I strongly identify with the adversarial path. And have finally begun to feel like spirituality makes sense.
I also understand that becoming a Magician is not a superficial undertaking, allowing you to remain a whiny angsty teenager and still shoot magic out of your hands, changing/ destroying/ or even effecting the outside world.
I know you can only change/ effect the outside, as much as you’ve strengthened, cultivated, cleaned up, and gotten-to-know yourself INSIDE.
But this leaves me in a conundrum:
How do I maintain an adversial outward identity (with my world*) while maintaining a constructive cohesive cooperative inner truth?
- this is assuming an adversarial approach is neither nihilistic (stemming from a place of lack or lovelessness) nor is it strictly “symbolic” suggesting EVERYONE is prone to and exercising an adversarial strain.
The particular Current or preference is a state of INTENSE PLAY, a desire of constant “chemical reactions” whether in stirring lively debate, in poking fun, or cunningly posing arguments that people find challenging to their beliefs.
Futhermore, the Adversary, in undertaking this necessary role is, polarized to a “less cooperative, less cohesive, less harmonizing, almost perpetually explosive lifestyle, as he understands the " healing” that takes place from the disturbance he’s created is natural and inevitable.
But consequences aside, on an even existential basis, the very harmonizing process of “resolution” is neither his responsibility to resolve, nor is it his interest or passion to consider, and therefore in no way within his power to do anything about.
The inventor of the automobile NEVER worried about the horse and carriage, nor did he consider the violent noise and speed such a tool would impress upon the populous.
Nor does an explorer or visionary concern herself with the unease she will cause on the minds unprepared to hear and accept these new “progressingly undeniable” truths.
Adversarialism = Ascent
But does Inner Cohesion = Outer stagnance?