I enjoy the discussions here very much but after several weeks of reading and lurking here and on Face Book Forums I have come to the conclusion that I am a really strange bird compared to most LHP practitioners. I probably would appear to most of you as more of a RHP person. My alter is not dimly lit. I do use subdued lighting during rituals but only because I am trying to incorporate more deep guided meditation prior to the rituals and bright light dies not work so well for that.
I wear a suit and tie to work daily. There is no dark occult feeling in my home. In fact, there is more of a down home conservative comfortable family vibe in my home. Politically I am a conservative (capital “L”) Libertarian. Most assume I am GOP but I’m not. My lifelong Asian Buddhist wife is though.
I will still go to Christian Churches with my sister and her family on some holidays as a visitor of course but not one seeking confrontation. I was raised in that same church so I “blend”. I left that church but not because I was upset or anything. It simply was not for me. I bare no ill-will or malice towards them. I also help the monks at the local Buddhist temple where my wife goes. They are likable people and I like to help them out when I can. And of course that buys me points with the wife and her friends who all originated from her home country. Happy wife - happy life as they say.
I donate time and money to charities when I feel motivated. I love animals (dogs and cats differently but equally).
If you saw me in public you would never assume that I wear a simple Belial pendant under my shirt and I would probably not stand out in any way compared to the other “run of the mill” pedestrians on the street.
In my rituals I have never sought to do anyone harm. That’s just not me. It’s not so much that I fear a karmic payback but I simply do not dislike people enough to want to harm them. The closest I have come is to ask Belial for protection from someone. The fact is, I like more people than I dislike. I like Christians. I like Buddhists. I like Catholics. I like Atheists. Most people are likable even if a little annoying at times.
In almost all of these ways - I feel a bit odd in the LHP community. Am I mistaken? I hope that I am. I fear that I am not.