I wish I could get drugs as they could give me spiritual experiences, but I don’t have access to them
No they won’t let me take drugs in there would they? Then what is the point. I would regain my mental faculties which is what I don’t want to do in that case
Lol those spiritual experiences are not fun.
Sleeping in my car high as a kite is horrible bro.
You need to watch reqium for an american dream
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They could open up my clairaudience and clairvoyance.
And I would be on a faster track to escaping this trash human body
They force drugs in you if you act crazy enough.
45 hours no sleep and people screaming will do it.
Like I said you only think you want this. You are cursing yourself essentially.
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What other way can I be free?
I am stuck here.
No psychic abilities or anything. My soul is locked up
Yep. Welcome to limbo. I lived there for about 7 years. Wanting death. Escaping pain amd change through any means necessary. Its the opposite of freedom.
You are reliant on other things to make you escape.
Ok, but after I escape, I won’t be reliant on anything.
Grab a Gallery of magick book.
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You relied on spirits to help open your abilities up. What is the difference
Asking the expertise of a coach is different than asking them to do it for you.
Im going to stop replying.
Like I said its not that hard to ruin yourself…
You are avoiding the real problem.
Depression.
Anxiety.
Low self esteem.
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Depression because of this body
Anxiety because of this body
and no low self-esteem. Only reason I would change the “self” is to get a mental illness so my sane self won’t have to deal with the body.
You have the power to change your body.
But you do not want to put to go through the change.
Thats what magick is changing something undesirable to something amazing.
You need willpower.
You need to humble yourself and be forged in fire.
Burn yourself down and be reborn.
I was diagnosed Bipolar, depressed etc.
Drugs, low self esteem, porn addiction, bad break up, ex still around (coming to my house), mother diagnosed with cancer, no friends. I could go on but honestly but itd be pointless.
I’ve given you the solution. You do not develope abilities overnight.
Everyone has a specialty in magick.
Never underestimate the power of training.
I take my training as seriously as Goku.
I self sabotaged myself to feel pain. Now I train myself to gain through pain.
I sit in cold showers and am freezing.
And force myself to control my breath.
Greatness is a habit and an act.
Become a stoic.
Thats all I have.
May the Gods be with you. 
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I don’t want to change this body. I want to get rid of it.
Why settle for less?
Use DXM to disconnect from life. Already turned it into a vicious demon…a very very strong one as well. U find it in otc cough syrup.
Not only will she crush your mind, you will be sooo dissociated, you won’t wanna stop…and when u do want to stop, u wont be able to…I thought i wanted to die, and so i used that drug. That was before making it into an entity that demands lives.
The dopamine rush should lift depression. Your inhibitions will go to the point where everything u do will be injurious to urself, and u will be someone completely different. U take a picture of ur face, u wont recognize it.
I don’t know how to help humans, so I don’t bother. But I do know a thing or two about destroying them. Since it seems you want to be destroyed, that is what i would offer u…(seriously…don’t do it) Granted this will piss ppl of higher morality and care for other humans off, but…I DID NOT send u to it.
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Sounds similar to my experience with MJ. Went to her for saving instead she killed me. Primordial energies.
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MJ? What do you mean?
You won’t be able to get rid of it. The best thing you can do is change it.
Quit running away and face your problems.