An update. We had sex twice and I can say that the situation suddenly backfired ; he doesn’t even respect me as a human being. It’s not a mutual sex agreement anymore, he just uses me like his toy. We barely talk, he is not interested in me or in what I say, he just wants sex. So I come, he jumps on me first, we do it and I leave. Nothing more. No communication, no contact, he doesn’t give a fuck about my life. And of course he keeps on repeating that there’s no place for feelings, he is conscious about the hold he has on me and kinda plays with it.
I never knew about this side of him before. It’s all new. When I was with him, he used to be sensitive, caring, respectful (especially toward women, he grew up with a feminist mother), everything but not this thirsty monster. He had a big heart, he would even comfort strangers and listen to them whereas he doesn’t give a single damn about me. Even after the break-up, he would repeat that I was important to him, precious, that I deserve much better, that I made his days better etc… No one would imagine this from him. I wonder if it’s because of my spells.
I heard that love spells don’t usually work immediately, that there’s always a heartbreak period before any positive effects to be seen. I hope it is true because it hurts me a lot but I still want him because I love him and I know that the person that he displays right now isn’t him.
By the way he is mentally unstable, depressed, self-harm, alcohol, drugs. He is a weak target, since he always changes his mind a lot, never know what he wants, but I wonder if this makes the outcome harder to reach.