I know I seemed like I was calling you out and I was.
But not to make a fool of you.You seemed like your contact with these spirits were a bit delusional.
Now you’re here so I hope that means you’re here to learn and if so you’ve come to the right place.
I know you said these things you perceive as spirits are all you’ve had for along time but until something actually manifests in your life you don’t have any reason to believe that they are what they say they are.
Now working with spirits.
Some people including myself start off by trying to make contact with any spirit they think will help them with any small goal and don’t wait for a manifestation of desire to occur before working on something else.
This does nothing but have many different energies running around in your life conflicting with each other because their goals and commands given by you don’t match up.
The nest thing for you to do is focus on ONE goal for now.
Find a spirit that can help you meet this goal.
Build a relationship with the spirit by studying it’s history,planetary associations,what it accepts as offerings,ect.Open the spirits sigil and let it be known you want to establish contact.Get use to it’s energies and once you feel connected to the spirit begin working on your goals.
Then once you’ve done the work start focusing on your goal.
Majick is not as simple as it might seem.It takes work,dedication, and will.
There are also plenty of other things you can do to help you REALIZE your power.
For me it was hoodoo with some spirit involvement.
Start off simple.Learn the basics of other forms of majick.Do your research.
Once you have one success with lower majick spells and it will improve your confidence in not onlyajick but YOURSELF which is absolutely required for any form of majick.
Don’t get discouraged if you fail.That’s how we learn to improve our majick.
Anybody who says they never fail or fuck up is subject to me.
Read about peoples successes to encourage you that you can do this but also read about peoples failures so you know that fuck ups DO HAPPEN no matter how badass of a majician you are.
I wish you the best of luck and commend you for coming to this realization.