I’m a leader, believe it or not. It’s not in my nature to follow.
Before I left school, back when I actually had a group of friends, I was the alpha.
Not in the sense that they looked to me to make decisions for the group, but I was the “wise” one. They all came to me with their problems, asking for advice. I was the one who kept everyone in line, who talked some sense into them when they were on the verge of doing something they’d regret.
I knew them better than most knew themselves.
They also knew that I would be the first person to fight for them. To back them up, make sure nothing bad happened to them even if it meant getting hurt myself.
Over the last few years I haven’t had friends, at least not like that. There are the odd few that I hang out with every now and then, but that’s just it. I don’t have a GROUP of friends. The friends I have each have their own group of friends.
I describe myself as an alpha without a pack, but that’s not entirely true…
I still have people who look to me for guidance, people who know I’ll be there to fight for them.
My family. My brothers… Sisters… Cousins…
They’re my pack.
What I didn’t realize is that I’ve been leading by example this entire time.
Because of me, everything has been plunged into chaos.
Now I need to fix it, starting with setting a better example.