So around 2 weeks ago I came across a post by @Mulberry mentioning CE5 and Dr Stephen Greer, I’ve been pretty interested in Crowley’s stuff recently and I’ve been split between wondering if Aiwass is actually Crowley’s HGA or something else so I decided I’d try and connect to Aiwass through it. Unfortunately didn’t journal at all that day so I might be missing some details from the experience, the memory is mostly still clear in my head so this is what I can remember.
After reading the post I first did a bunch of research on the CE5 as quick as I could and then got to trying it. The time was around 1am when I began. I did a quick banishing and then started to slow my breathing while staring at the sky. I kept focusing at the sky and tried to keep my mind as blank as possible and just kinda zone out and held the intention in my mind that I wanted to connect with Aiwass and have him reach out to me.
In my mind’s eye I saw a weird vision that looked kind of like a “moss network”, it was like moss or fungi that was all interlinked and I saw it start to connect together. It was kind of like a colony of different individual strains of something that was already interlinked and connecting together. It reminded me of this video and looked somewhat similar but not too similar: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVe94qa1ar4
I kept staring at the sky for around 30-40 mins and then ended up laying down to go sleep because I didn’t see anything physically. The next part happened in a state where I’m not entirely sure if I’d just fell asleep or was just about to fall asleep, but I was practically asleep with some conscious awareness of my body still. I then felt a really strong physical reaction and felt my body instinctively tense up in a really weird way. It was like anticipatory but it didn’t feel like a normal reaction, it felt more like pressure and gravity on my body. If you imagine yourself lying down and then your someone lifts your body just a few centimetres above the ground with a crane and you feel the gravity pulling you but at the same time your muscles are tensing up because it feels like something’s on top of you, that’s how it felt to me. It didn’t feel like I was “in” my body during any of this though it just felt like I still had conscious awareness of it and how it all felt.
It felt like while my body was on my bed I was actually in the air in the exact same position a bit above it, above my headboard and at the height of a window. My eyes were closed so I couldn’t actually see anything but I had a crystal clear image in my mind that looked like a 3rd person perspective from the window where there were three grey alien-like figures behind me keeping my spirit suspended in the air as we connected. They all looked like clones of eachother and there was no real differentiating factor between any of them. Any or all of them could’ve been Aiwass because they looked the same. They felt very strong, to the point where it seemed like their presence alone had this reaction on me, and it almost felt as if I was seeing this from one of their perspectives instead but I could see all of them and myself and my spirit in the air.
I couldn’t really “think” of anything during this time let alone say anything since my body was asleep but weirdly we were still able to communicate somehow. It didn’t really feel like communication at all because it was instant and instinctive. I want to say it was more of a feeling but I didn’t sense the presence of any feeling from these greys, it felt like they were devoid of all emotion and feeling but that’s still the best way I can describe it. So I “felt” them ask why I wanted to connect and I didn’t need to think of or say a reply or anything, I just somehow conveyed to them that “I’m interested in Aiwass and want to learn from him”. This was also weird because I didn’t really even go into this thinking of that or any other goal and it was just more of something I decided to do out of interest but it was all instant and automatic. It felt like they were communicating directly with my spirit and it was saying things I didn’t know myself and I just had to be a conscious observer. It felt like they agreed and that was it, or at least that’s what I can remember. There was definitely more but I can’t remember the rest. I also asked for something very specific that I won’t mention, but it came into fruition very quickly after.
I can’t really draw much of a conclusion from this because of how weird it was but it felt like those three greys were either “part of” Aiwass like a network or something, sent by whatever Aiwass is, some type of gatekeepers, or maybe just other greys. I can’t really say at all, only thing I can go by is my intention was to connect to Aiwass and they looked somewhat similar.
I mentioned a lot about how it felt and that’s really the main way I can put this all into words but from my experience these greys were completely devoid of emotion, they didn’t feel like they had malicious intentions but they felt very cold and emotionless. The whole experience with them and especially their presence felt abnormal and completely inhuman, they felt like they were manufactured or made in a factory and they appeared completely indifferent. A UPG theory I came up with is that with many spirits we tend to project our own energies, beliefs, biases and emotions onto them as part of our experience and naturally end up experiencing them in different ways but with these guys it felt like that was impossible because not only was there nothing to project, the actual experience communicating with them felt almost like a forced confession with no way to actually control or decide what I wanted to say.
The weeks after have been pretty hectic (life stuff in general that would’ve made this time hectic anyway) so I didn’t try again and I also can’t say what influence if any they’ve had on me and my life during this time.
Was a pretty interesting and I daresay fun experience, it felt very inhumane but it didn’t feel negative. There was no real sense or feeling of danger but that’s because there wasn’t really any sense or feeling at all during this experience. I’m sure they are actually pretty dangerous. All in all, 10/10 would get abducted again. I’ll probably try reach out again soon and I’ll update if I do.
