Just had to post this piece of art I created. I am extremely proud of myself. I used to be a decent artist, only drawing on occasion, constantly putting my work efforts down “This sucks” or “this looks stupid” and instead of telling myself it doesn’t have to look stupid, I would give up, pout like a child and say damn, my art is horrible.
My ascension has instilled upon me an ever surfacing level of confidence to the likes of which I have never seen. Not a narcissistic I’m better than everyone else confidence, I cannot stand people like that, but the will to keep trying when my efforts seem like failures. The will to push on and say you know what, yeah that does suck but it doesn’t have to, I’m gonna keep at this until this shit rocks in my opinion.
After asking for some help with my artistic talents I found that the help is being given to me as a confidence booster. My talents have always been there, but I was always too lazy to bring them to my fullest potential. I am a perfectionist so if things are not to my liking on the first try, I would give up and say why try if my goal is not going to end the way I want it to end? Lately though, I have turned that type of thinking around and instead I say, this sucks, now what I can do to make this the best it can possibly be? and I do not give up until my mind is convinced I am satisfied.
The picture below may not even be that great, some may even hate it and some could probably do much better than me, but I spent 2-1/2 days working on this drawing non-stop. I didn’t even sleep during that 2-1/2 days until last night. I have unlocked a relentless dedication to my art and my music. My music still needs vast improvements but it’s getting better slowly. The last song I made recently called “The 9 Kings” which was a tribute to them of course, I didn’t even write down the lyrics to that song because I didn’t have to stop and think of them before hand. After making the musical composition, the lyrics just poured out of me, no thought behind them at all.
Here lately I swear I feel like I am channeling all of these lyrics and artistic compositions from somewhere. Not sure from where though or from who, but someone is definitely giving me a creative hand up. This all started after I asked for help with my art and music, and after asking a 2nd demon to add to the help, endless talent seems to be coming out of nowhere. Anyone have any similar experiences? Sorry If I seem braggish, I am just really proud of myself as art is one of my passions in life in addition to the occult, so to finally reach a level of achievement where at least I am proud of my accomplishments and to mix the two by creating occult themed art, has made me very happy here lately.