i was going to start a new topic for this- but it may work here.
Alot lately, when i am chanting, “Alash” and Enn, or whatever- i find that regardless of how well I have them memorised- I will begin half way in the middle of one- then like it should be there, the first part of another, a couple words from this then that- then my tounge kinda flips around and a real sounding word of ‘never heard before gibberish’ slides out, and then when i 'stop to get a grip on things and 'get it right- i feel this huge withdrawl, i trade my ‘regained mental regrasp’ for a “stupid feeling of like I dropped the touchdown pass in the endzone”. Really, regaining control I now see as a reflex- and I admit to being kinda a perfectionist control freak[who rarely gets it right ]. Any wize counsel?
There’s an older thread about it here that had some interesting updates recently.
I haven't read the BoA as a whole recently but how can you be sure, you are not agreeing to a pact you just don't want? Same goes for the circle? I know people made some experiences with this but still...
Ask your spirits/do divination/get some done, I should think is the best way. :)[/quote]