TL:DR - when demons start tearing your life apart roll with it.
Of course we all have our own priorities in life… things which are critical, which to others are mundane. . I guess it harks back the pyramid of needs EA spoke about.
So I’ve been on this forum a while, stumbled in with a fairly Base drive, and found a world of knowledge which reminded me of an all but forgotten past where I had done LHP work as a teen.
Often ppl talk about how the demons destroy to create, I worked through various ideas from here… inspired I tried the 72 challenge and met all manner of spirit- recklessly… maybe so, but still with eyes open. I read more than I post and lurk a lot.
I had worked with Azazel & Belial as many here have, I did the 2 month solely with Azazel… always with the caveat - leave my herd alone, you may not affect their home & safety.
At the start of the year I recall feeling something probing at the edge of my sphere of influence- relating to my herds safety and firmly put my foot down. It stopped. I burned out magically and stopped for a few months.
Then Abaddon came into my consciousness. . The name calling, as it was out of nowhere I listened and called, he answered. I agreed to work with him. To let him burn away all that was not sustainable, that would not stand a stress test.
Suddenly and indescribably out of the blue my herds land (after 11years) was threatened, a LHP channeler contacted him on my behalf (2 way clarity is still hard for me) and she (among a lot of personal stuff that she could not guess/blag) suggested that he was there to make me take a leap- if I wanted to.
I agreed, and the storm around my herds land intensified. (Now think of me as a mad cat lady but with horses… they are my life, I’ve no partner, *close friend,child … the security of the animals who depend on me is more important than my own life) … I held fast through the pain and constant anxiety attacks… 2 months it took to play out. They had their plan.
4 weeks ago a lady right on the edge of my sphere contacted someone for me (land is scarce here, and at a premium… finding accommodation for 5 horses in one hit is next to impossible) … I could find nothing, I forgot about the lady, and faced with splitting them up I found a field 20 miles away.
Something in my mind kept me stallin. My tarot cards kept on saying wait wait wait… literally 3 days from the eviction date I had nowhere to go and put money on the 20mile place.
The very next day the lady called- she had a field, it would be perfect. . Better than my old one, cheaper, bigger, better facilities, less stress, a better location…
So my herd is there. My whole world was ripped apart in the process - to non animaly folk it’s hard to explain just how hard the purging was. It felt like loosing everything.
Abaddon had set foot where Azazel had listened and aquiesed. Last night I slept, so grateful for the destruction, he tore apart countless ppls life’s to make this happen to put me in a better place.
It is said time and again that the way of the demons is the short painful way, it is so true but so worth it!