Out of the two ideas you provided. I would honestly prefer this one. Again I don’t know how I’d feel with myself even though yes I have done physical things. Very very minor things before. But yeah.
The worst time my anger for him got control was I was raging walking home from work and I just felt it leaving as if it was entering him and a hour later I see him limping with crutches on “I stepped on a rusty nail” I felt bad and didn’t at the same time💀
Like I didn’t intentionally call to have him step on a rusty nail it just felt like the closer I got to my house the less the anger got as if it was transferring to him. The toxic energy. And just some random shit happened. I noticed that if I’m angry at someone I can willingly push it into them like it’s a visible energy now and later I see some random bad shit happens to them. It sucked cause i noticed it’s random like I don’t got control of exactly what bad happens something of poor luck just happens. And I guess with him circumstances fell poorly for him and he stepped on a nail.