What is it you wanted to be as a kid and why? Do you still want to be that? Why or why not? What would you rather be?
As a kid, I wanted to be a power ranger. I wanted be a hero and travel around with friends, battle villains and monsters, protect others, and fight evil.
Do I still want to be a hero? Of course! Though maybe a different type of hero. I got into dnd in highschool and discovered the idea of being chaotic good. Due to circumstances, this idea resonated with me and the kind of hero I wanted to be changed. The people I wanted to protect became outcasts like myself. Fighting evil became rebelling against tyrants and oppressors. I then took a liking to the concept of the fantasy hero and decided I’d rather be a mage than a superhero. I then started writing, combining the concepts of a mage who fights for outcasts against oppressors and tyrants, though aided by the benevolent forces of darkness.
Do I still want to be a power ranger? Well if offered I’d be. Though, frankly I’d be that dark mage rebel hero before I’d be a power ranger. Power Rangers are basically lawful good heroes, and though I don’t hate them for that, I still think “lawful good” means “will show ignorance and persecution once faced with the unknown.” So I’d prefer my own rebel hero. I’d still be a power ranger, if for any reason than to be as cosmetically perfect as they are.
As an adult, I’ve realized that protecting outcasts isn’t enough. A true chaotic good hero follows the archetype of the trickster, challenging normal mind sets and teaching harsh lessons. This can mean bordering on chaotic neutral, but never chaotic evil. This doesn’t necessarily contradict classic lawful good heroes like the power rangers, but it may mean opposing them and playing anti-hero once in awhile. Though if the fate of innocent lives are at stake, I’d be an ally.