I had a dream
In the dream I already died. And I was aware I was married to Belial so, of course I had residency reserved for me in “hell”. But I remained on Earth, most likely because I wasn’t strong enough to be there, like I’m talking about the infernal space where powerful beings dwell.
So I just occupied my now abandoned house and turrned the animals into vicious beasts to keep people away from it. Most of the time I was not physical but I could manifest and let people see me if needed. I was happy about my new form of existence and decided to be a succubus for fun, so I morphed my shape into a more attractive one and started seducing people. The energy I got from it helped me get stronger and closer to becoming a demoness, but also drove me kind of crazy sometimes.
There was this organization, who tried to help me and prevent me from becoming a demoness while I was still on Earth (hence still “fixable”). I understood they must have seen my instability and I understood where they came from but there was no changing my mind. I needed to arrive in “hell”. So I seduced the woman assigned to me. It was not even that hard.
Also since I occupied my house, it became an annex of hell itself. There was this teenager ghost who was assigned to it and I got really annoyed but she had nowhere else to go. She was too young to be commited to the infernal realm via practicing the occult so I guessed she was in in the more traditional sense of do crime go to hell, or more precisely the annex of it which might be the more shitty place. I asked her if she murdered someone and she remained silent but I didn’t like the look in her eyes at all. Was cold and glaring and made me want to watch my back right in my home. I was pissed.
One night though i came home high on energy or succubus hormones or whatever it was, and my watch beasts were making a ruckus chasing something. I was annoyed and alerted by their noises so I flew over and swatted the thing, using a really strong form of mine, killing it instantly in a bloody mess. Later I sobered up and realize it was someone in the neighborhood whom I knew. I felt really shitty about it and wondered what the heck I was doing with myself.
But I had no other way to distract myself from this guilt except to indulge myself so I went straight to the HQ of that other organization, found the woman in charge of me in a room on the second floor and seduced her into sex. It satisfied me for a short while but then I looked at her and only felt that she was pitiful. So I left.
And I disgruntledly prayed that this phase will soon be over.
Why did I tell you this dream? Because I’ve seen discussions about what comes after death and here’s another possibility: that you might not immediately go somewhere, although your number of options may vary depends on who wants you to be where. In this dream I bet I could have gone to whatever place they had for the deads who no longer have things to do and whose souls arent messed up because of sth terrible they did, but I chose to stay and try to evolve into something else, even if it screwed me up a little in the process. The little girl had her own ordeals too, I didn’t really want to know what it was, but I’m sure she also had more than one path to choose.
So maybe after death you’d still have to make decisions and battle with yourself and do your best. Also explains why there are earthbound spirits all around and they’re so screwed up. Maybe they aren’t even supposed to pass peacefully. Maybe they’re on their way to evolve into something greater but are not succeeding.
And maybe hell (the traditional one) is on earth, just weaved in and out of our dimension. If I were the higher spirits, I really wouldn’t want these messed up immature souls in my realms.
I’m okay with this. I can work with it.