The pyramid makes it seem like the only way to take is from the bottom up. That’s Maslow’s recommended approach. Not necessarily how it works.
You can have a great job, and family and have horrible food choices. But until that person says “you know what I wanna be the best version of myself” they will not look at their food and psychological needs.
Im missing things from every tier.
Love and belonging missing, I invest a lot of exp point into self esteem and self actualization.
I was lacking a stable family and sometimes esteem and safety as a child, but that never stopped me from trying to be my best. Rose that grew from concrete sort of deal.
A seed planted in the concrete and mud, can still bloom into a wonderful flower despite poor soul and care, if it is determined enough, when it’s a flower its circumstances may change and it get much better soil and watering, then all of the sudden it wants to work on its stem, the height it can grow etc, when before all it cared about was sprouting from the mud and concrete to show the world it could, would, and is a damn beautiful rose.
It sounds like you are looking to build a tower to the sky, when you could try your best to fly and touch the sky. Yes you may soon realize you wings are wax and the sun will have you crashing back down to earth, but you will know what It was like to be up there and the journey back up will be much safer now that you are building and not leaping and flying.
The only reason I say this is I’m a year of true practice, instead of only doing “beginner” friendly magick. I just shot for the fucking stars. I would fall, and I would fall HARD but I always got back up no matter what.
I do not know if I ever have been in the so called “rapture state or TGS”. But I’ve seen spirits and have god tier experiences using my own power or having and experience that I would attribute to a fellow lLving God.
Death has kissed me multiple times, and has mindfucked plenty. But my heart still beats.
And even the times that it’s stopped, my body was still moving and I never left my body so it’s does not count as a full death.
But every has a different approach, and learn in different ways, in sports some people would need to be walked through the drill and told what to do, and coached as they go. For me I like to see one example and then try to replicate it, I run through the drill and then at the end I ask for tips to improve and then I run again.
That’s why when I came to the forum, I went to the people I saw as the most powerful and experienced. I had no time to dabble I was full send
I just said fuck it and put the game on expert mode. I got fucking destroyed . But kept throwing myself at it.
The cool thing about magick is since it is beyond time you’ll gain experience points and even an entire fleshed out skill tree the more you dabble.
I had repressed childhood memories come up with these habits and other things I would do as a kid and now I see the magickal significance, and can incorporate it into my craft.
Anyways I’m looking forward to seeing how much you grow within the next 9 months…not really I will not keep track, but I’ll believe you if you say you’ve grown