If I were to guess, most of you frequent forum-ers would describe me as a newbi that is clearly floundering and looking for his “niche” in Magick. And I would have to concede that this is true.
So I thought that it would help me if I were to clearly state my goals for the remainder of my life; maybe by doing so, you all can help me eliminate a lot of rabbit trails that will waste my time or take me down a counter-productive path: My ideal concept of happiness would entail this: 1) I want to live an isolated, rural life where nobody (neighbors, police, firefighters, code-enforcement officers, etc) fuck with me. I sort of live in that type of place now. 2) Having an occupation (preferably self-employed, working in my shop), doing what I love, making more money than I need to survive (in other words, I want to save $500-800 per month after paying bills. 3) I want an attractive female who like me for who I am and won’t get fat or bitch at me all the time. 4) I want to be able to provide for my parents who are getting older (I guess this is part of number 2).
I am not interested in obtaining power over other people (except when they try to fuck with my above goals). I am in no way interested in an atheistic brand of magick like Satanism; I like the idea of viewing spirits as superior to us in some ways, but yet subservient to us if we do the correct ritual.
Maybe this will help narrow things down for you as you assist me in narrowing down the type of magick that I want.