after chanting kleem mantra 108 times which ive been doing for the past month, i did this ritual.
instead of the dragon blood incense i used homemade, handmade inscense which was powered cinnamon in them .
after meditating i held the glass with both hands and started thinking of the good times we had .and how we used to laugh together. and i stared to say “you love me” you want to call me , you want to hear my voice etc and as soon as i started saying it i started to feel a vibration from my feet up in my body and arms , hands and face. i took it as a good sign and continued. then i started feeling a light glowing in my chest and with the visulization i kept saying you love me and every thing along those line. the point was to empty myself of all the feelings i had for her . may be that did the trick.
i was in some good five minutes may be then a scene in my head popped up abt how we fought and what she said to me. then to eliminate that i opened my eyes and let go of the glass… and thought that was it for tonight .
This afternoon was watching another spell on YouTube and thinking what I did last night . I suddenly felt dizzy and I have a slight pinch in my heart . Could it be the spell I did last night ?
Lying in my bed it’s 4.30 am and I have gremory sigil under my pillow since yesterday in hopes of any dreams as divinations. Last night I didn’t . So tonight I placed my had on it and asked me to show the way to her heart . What must I change mentally ,physically or in my behaviour to make her fall head over heels for me . Show me what must I do.
I tried to talk to amon and dantalion . It was very brief . But later I realised I only asked them 3 or 4 questions and made my request of which the answers I already knew. So I was like my subconscious talking to me . And for the questions I didn’t knew the answer to there was silence. So I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me .
So for me smthn in my dreams would be much more clear.
Btw I also am.a lil scared to talk to higher self and stuff. Because I sometime feel negative like I feel giving up and just talk shit to the target because she hurt me and stuff while meditating and even in trials of invoking … and I don’t want to project that to the workings. Any way around that ? Much thanks
You could try writing out all the negative stuff and burning it, but that might also be a deeper issue, trying to get something while at the same time having negative thoughts about the target, however justified by emotional pain that may be.
Magick works best when you have all your stuff lined up and totally focused, even if you need to become temporarily kind of off-balance to do it.
One of the problems and why I feel the resentment is that everytime we develop some sort of bond or we start to communicate really well she tries to stop … she energetically blocks me … and I can feel it … that ikky feeling . It makes me feel like did I do smthn wrong here? N I start to ponder on questions like what should be my next move . What must I say to manage this situation. Which develops an anxious energy.
Can this be used to eliminate her limiting beliefs towards me ? Like writing a letter to her saying that "you don’t feel a certain way towards me . You feel like opening up to me . Etc etc ?
It’s often considered quite difficult to get an ex back, or win over someone who’s rejected you. I mean I never managed anything like that when I was single.
I think these mixed feelings may be part of why.
I don’t think there’s a single easy thing you can do, but sdo try this, it;s not just self-help, in the Joe Vitale book he mentions it sometimes influencing others, especially when it’s for their own good:
Try it on your feelings, frist, hers only after you feel reasonably unconflicted towards her.
been contemplating for sometime now. but last week i decided to do it today.
going to do it with white candle instead of red. its really hard to find colored candles around here. since white is a substitute for all colors
going to do it in the day of the venus and hour of venus.
i have the photographs . will face south. and decided to include ladilok in the ritual including astarte as it is in the original ritual.