Okay this is something I suggested to someone else who was trying very hard, forgive the copy-pasta but it might help:
Try a totally different method of magick, but don’t make it “pass fail, oh fuck this time I HAVE to get it right, I’m running out of options” - make it FUN.
I’m going to PM you a simple method of soul travel that I explicitly insist you do AS A GAME - not for results, not for “real” spirit contact.
For the experience, and the creativity, alone.
Imagine you’re in a fun creative writing class that takes place on a good day for you, nice scenery outside, birds in the trees and water dappling through the windows from the peaceful river outside, and you’re in a large but comfortable hall with people leading this class.
You’ve got a great lunch to look forward to of food that you find most healthy/suitable /whatever, and you’re just being CREATIVE - nothing more.
To get into the mode of character in the story, you’re going to read the exercise I send with a curious mind, but no pressure, as immersed as feels right for you, but half FEELING what the character would do for fun as he (or she) begins the journey into travelling into astral realms.
Give it a go, keep the pressure OFF, do the creative work as instructed but just let the rest flow, don’t stand half outside like a spectator judging your own performance.
Okay going to PM now, get back to me after having a good, relaxed, go playing with this.