So, My name is splixAmoreon.
Its really hard to explain my situation. Its really odd of sorts.
So, a very long story short, I started a path of study into Neo Paganism a few years back, though my story doesn’t start there. I have always had a dark streak thru me and often at times my energy would become unbalanced. As people would tell me that things around me were dark of nature, I scurried to the light. I would get dark heavy, then swing like a pendulum back to heavy light (thought it never fit my purpose.) Light and love comments always barked my ass.
I have always had dark presences around me, for as long as I can remember and people would have me horrified over it. Though I would always want to peek and see what was stirring. For the dark presences never brought me harm. It would be other things. Even when I would dream and have nightmares it wasn’t the demons after me (I knew they were there but always at a distance) Now I have seen some other things that scared the hell right out of me. But never what I perceived to be “my demons” I have had a manly presence in my life and he has been with me strongly. The symbolism I have that surrounds him, I wont admit did make me uneasy but I wasn’t in fear with him around. I get smells when he is near, I can feel his presence pretty quickly. Now, I did not summon him. Actually, after I did a ritual asking for help from another Deity did he actually come out and reveal himself to me. And speak. He did not speak but would point in the direction I needed to go. The odor I smell is quite intoxicating and my heart and throat chakra become on fire then the energy swells out from there. The first sign of his to me was in peacock form. From that a hooded man who would seem lurking. But when I asked Lilith for help with a matter, lets just say she didnt come alone. He came into the for front and basically demanded things move. VERY cryptic in speaking but sweet yet deep. More or less kind of shoved Lilith aside and said I got this. The next night. I walked into my living room only to find 2 large (sitting 4 to 5 foot in height.) That scared me and I walked back into my room. I felt someone grab my shoulders and whisper lets go. There not hear to harm you, their mine. Protection. I walked past those dogs only to look into my front yard and see more. I went to the back of the house and looked the back yard and there was more. I think about 7 in total. I was never without at least one of those dogs. This lasted for weeks. I was beginning to think I was going bat shit nuts. when I looked under a mirror in my living room about 4 1/2 feet off the ground was a DOG print in mud. it was 3 or 4 inches wide. I left it on the wall. The more research I find the more, I ABSOLUTLY know who it is. I just didnt think that he would be that source of protection. I have done research but I have not really studied in depth. Lilith has been in my life for years. I guess, I am on a mission to find out why.
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