[quote=“Timothy, post:1, topic:3232”]Hello Newcomer,
Introduce yourself in this thread so that older members can welcome you.
Hey guys I’m Aluriel and here’s a little bit about how I got involved in the occult. You may not read it all, it’s pretty long, but here goes.
My journey with the occult started when I was very young. I wasn’t shy or awkward around my peers. Quite the opposite actually, I was very outgoing. My parents are Nigerian and I was raised in a traditional Christian family, of course with a touch of magic on the side as it tends to be with many African families, superstition and all. My mothers side of the family comes from a coastal area that is known for their juju, and my Grandmother would tell me old tales of villagers and their interactions with mermaids and their magic mirrors and how they used it to spy on others and work magic, their love for gifts and jewelry and of course their long lovely hair. ( This was before I even had even heard of Ariel nor had I watched the movie)
Thus started my introduction to magic and boy was I fascinated with it, I would make her tell me all the old tales she knew and she did, always laughing and smiling gently at me with soft eyes that always seemed to know something my that I did not. I also had a lot of “coincidences” happening when I was younger, I still do but they’re less frequent. I was always lucky as a child, I remembered one time when I didn’t turn in my assignment and the teacher was looking for the student who had yet to submit. As his eyes drifted through the class I had a moment of panic where I begged whoever cared to listen to help, I then experienced this short burst of emotion that left me feeling weird. After that the teacher just didn’t notice me all throughout class.
The moment that still remains vividly burned in my mind was an incident that happened many years ago, my family had a help back then who was from the same tribe as my mother. We had gone shopping and I was feeling happy, I walked with a bounce in my step. The help, whose name was Victoria, walked a few steps ahead of me. We crossed the threshold of my home and in my haste, I forgot to close the gate. I just kept walking until she told me to go close it. I felt irritated at having to walk the few steps down to close it, as I swung my head to see what she was talking about, the gate swung and closed itself. There wasn’t a hint of wind, it was a hot sunny day. I shrugged my shoulders as I didn’t think much of it at the time but I noticed the help was staring at m strangely and when I met her gaze unflinchingly, she said but a single word that echoed in my mind throughout the day. “Ifot” was what she said, this is Efik and literally translates to "witch"in English. I’m multilingual so I knew the meaning immediately but thought nothing of it.
The following years flew by and I felt the magic of my childhood slipping away, I still believed of course, that never changed but I felt sort of empty, Christianity while comforting in its sense of familiarity and peace, just didn’t cut it for me. So one day, cruising the internet I searched for spells but they just didn’t seem authentic to me. I continued my search till I came upon the word “Wicca”. I looked into it, it seemed legit, a religion that actually practiced magic. I was ecstatic, I got all the Wiccan books I could find. Literally got a whole library off the internet, and so began my journey into magic, as Glinda the good witch.
I learned the tenets of Wicca, just like a good witch should, worked on my meditation, visualization, raising energy. Surprisingly it was all working, the techniques felt familiar. On I went, learning working my focus, till I finally got ready to cast my first spell. It was a simple money spell as I needed cash at the time. I mean, when you’re 14 who doesn’t need money right ? So I did it, I cast my circle, called the four quarters, raised my energy and emotions and focused my intent. I felt hungry after so I took it as a good sign. That same day when my parents got back from work later that night. They gave me ten dollars each, for being, and I quote “such a good boy”. By the end of the week I had about fifty dollars. My confidence in my abilities boosted.
So I stuck with Wicca for a whole year, but after a while, I started getting restless. I wasn’t content. It felt too constricting, the whole “magic can’t do this and magic can’t do that”. I soon branched out and started searching for a new path. I dabbled in voodoo for a while and as you know, much of the information out there on voodoo is so watered down you have to sift through so much bullshit to find a grain of truth. I did a bit of Celtic magic, Norse, sea witchery, you name it, I tried it. I soon began to find a general pattern with these, I was more attracted to the pantheon of gods and spirits of these traditions and the feeling grew stronger with each day. I also noticed I had a flair for divination too.
Then came 2016, and I clocked 15 on January the 24th (yeah I’m young, I know). I got an interesting book, I believed it’s called “The Encyclopedia of spirits”. Then started my real interaction with the spirit world. The more I learned about spirits, the more I felt their energies and influences, it wasn’t just with one spirit though, I identified myself with many. The book did help me get familiar with so many spirits and their correspondences. Still sort of holding on to my Wicca beliefs, I tried to avoid the darker more mysterious gods and spirits at first. But nope, those were the ones I felt attracted to the most, I finally just gave up and opened myself to it all. I identified with the darker goddesses: Hecate, Lilith, Cybele, Anat, Hel, I even forged a warm bond with Kali. To my amazement they weren’t at all what I expected them to be, I was never frightened, I felt comforted. Hecate helped me to explore my inner self and finally give up my inhibitions on magic. Lilith made me feel cathartic and liberated, with Cybele I felt wild ecstasy, Anat made me feel powerful. It all went on from there, I began to forge a relationship with the mother goddesses : Isis, Kwan Yin, Yemaya (who is one of my strongest allies till date), the Norse deities, Fairy Queens, Egyptian pantheon and the Semitic pantheon. I got to know some of the voodoo pantheon, I never once felt frightened, Papa Elegba, Oshun, Oya, Erzili Freda, Ogun. I seemed to want to know everything about these deities and spirits from across cultures.
Once I got to know these deities, I felt more in touch with myself and those around me if that made sense. I learnt a lot too, I learnt a little about the Qliphoth from Hecate and kundalini from Kali. I read a little bit about the left hand path and I’m interested, I want to learn to break the boundaries that Wicca has left still fresh in my mind. I want to be able to actually see the spirits I communicate with, sure I get the sense that they’re listening and that they’re there but I want to be able to actually see them in ritual. I want to do things I could only dream of doing. I want to learn how to sharpen by psychic skills and divination, awaken my kundalini, astral travel, evoke spirits. I’m so glad I came upon this site, and already my mind is racing with the possibilities.
I want to be the sorcerer and not the Wiccan. I’m looking for a path where I can really explore divination and working with gods and spirits, I want to learn about evoking, channeling and possession and voodoo too, I know a bit about angels and demons but I look forward to working with them, also does anyone know a bit about sea witchcraft ? It’s quite an elusive subject I’ve been trying to get my hands on for a while.
Can anything suggest some helpful spirits that I can work with to advance more in this path ? I’d love to hear your comments and suggestions.
I look forward to getting to know you all better!
Aluriel.
Ps, my name is Francis but I think that’s terribly mundane, so I came up with the name Aluriel, It feels right though.[/quote]
