Sup y’all.
I’m Fire, and I’ve been working on a truckload of different paths since I’ve been 12 years old.
Been doing a lot of rituals lately, and as I was looking into different entities, I accidentally found BALG. Pretty useful stuff here, so I figured to join the community.
One of my main problems is that initial “hurdle” that people are talking about - not seeing or hearing spirits, while also not being able to astral project. I’ve never let that get to me though, and I’ve seen massive, absolutely massive success with magick.
Spirituality has been an integral part of my whole life. Even though I was baptized at birth into the Orthodox Christian religion, I never felt a pull towards it, but studied the deeper stuff. Somewhere in the middle of that, I realized I wanted to grow as much as possible spiritually. I wanted to reach the highest echelons of spirituality. And then two months ago when I found this forum (yes, been lurkin’ and stalkin’ ;)) my desire crystallized - I wanted to ascend to Godhood.
Interestingly, at the same time I’ve found this forum, I’ve been thinking of working with demons. I’ve had terrifying fears of them before for some reason, and it took quite some time to clear that out, and yet here I am, closer than ever.
Speaking of demons… I’ve had an interesting occurrence yesterday as I was doing the sword banishing technique before sleep. Sadly, I was waaay too sleepy, and was phasing in and out of consciousness. In this technique, you are supposed to use the Cosmic Voice and call out to 4 angels to banish… and for some reason, like it wasn’t even me saying it, the name Azazel popped out of nowhere in my cosmic voice.
Literally like this… started the visualization, said the first angel name… fell asleep… through a haze I automatically, instead of the second angel name, said Azazel into the universe.
Of course I broke out of the haze then and was like “the fuck?” and started slightly panicking, but I let it go soon after. I literally did not feel as if I said it. I don’t know why even him and his name.
I’ve never had this happen. Never felt a real pull towards him, and then boom. Now I’m researching on him, thinking maybe it wasn’t a coincidence. Maybe it was some spirit whispering to me.
Feel free to share your opinion on it.
Anyway, nice to meet you guys and girls.
To Ascension!